Actually I had a wonderful afternoon with ladycat and nisaba, who bought me drinks and glitter! in a pot! and talked with me about all sorts of things and are generally fantastic.
Unfortunately, have had to leave asrana's birthday dinner due to inability to cope with more than two people at once, which I didn't realise I'd have until I got there. Am now home on a Friday night, shaky and tearful. A very very long way from happy, tonight. And I feel so *weak*. Argh.
Would ask for help but don't know what kind I need and anyway it's a Friday night so you're all out. But, argh.