sad
dennyd had just stayed and we'd crashed out early and could have spent today together. Much thanks to the people who *did* have a good night for letting me tag along, but nevertheless, I wish I'd stayed at home. Once again, Slimelight and associated people and things remind me that there are worse things than being on my own.Although I really don't want it to seem like I didn't enjoy the evening, because I did, there were just lots of things bringing me down. And I love all you guys very much and did enjoy being with you. I'm just kind of fragile. ~s~
Dancing was good though. Among other things, they played a song that's been making me squeak for a while and when I asked people what it was, they replied 'something by Nine Inch Nails' - again. I think I'm going to have to cave and confess that they're actually rather good, after all. ~s~
And just as we were leaving I was standing on the stairs listening to the music through the doors in the upstairs, music-as-a-physical-force room, and they played a fantastic song (which they played at EB but didn't sound quite as good so I hadn't danced) which I *think* I'm getting hold of now.
And The Other Ballroom Song which makes me fall apart is apparently 'Gorgeous' by Turbulent Soundscape. Many kisses to
dennyd for finding it. (It amuses me that the two songs I so desperately wanted were respectively called 'Beautiful' and 'Gorgeous'...)I've just realised that this was the first time I've been to the Ballroom when they didn't play 'Sex Dwarf' by Soft Cell, anything by Apoptygma Berzerk *or* 'Once In A Lifetime' by Wolfsheim. Most of you won't know why this strikes me so deeply, but it does. I'm just not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing.
Anyway, yeah. Big mistake in lots of ways, going there last night. Never mind. I'll have music.
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