We then went back to lolliepopp's for film-watching and much silliness, with the added company of jhg, sweinhodge, adjectivemarcus, babysimon and trishpiglet. Almost unfair amounts of fun were had sitting around giggling at bad jokes.
I didn't want to leave at all today. Didn't want to come back to this empty house. Time spent around people was great; when they all went to bed I sat up for an hour wishing I could have followed one or more of them, I really didn't want to be alone. Remembering babysimon's genuinely charming (and very drunken) explanation that he didn't fancy me, and wasn't ever going to. ~s~ [And apparently some things I've misremembered, for which I apologise many many times as I was absolutely convinced of what I'd heard, but I admit that my state of mind at the time, while not under the influence of alcohol of course, was not what you might call stable. I'm sorry Simon, and others - no offence intended, I swear.]
I was thinking about it last night, glad that feanelwa had gone to crash in the same room as valkyriekaren because I couldn't have slept. I'd have sat up and cried and cried.
I did. But alone, where it wasn't disturbing anyone. Then I checked my phone, and found I had a surprise-hugs text from olithered, which occasioned meepage. Then I slept.
And this house is so empty. Lots of me is considering asking various people if they happen to be free this evening, just so I can have company. They won't be, though. This is probably a good thing.
I'm so lonely now. And aching with wishing I were, for want of a better explanation, valkyriekaren's type. ~s~ Ah well. Never mind.
I'll close my eyes and pray for Tuesday afternoon to creep up unexpectedly.