And then I was going to quite the lyrics of 'Beautiful Stranger' by Madonna at someone on LJ, and suddenly I was doubled over in pain. Music. Bah. It's always music. Music and sudden memories.
I *will not cry*; there is no point and I have managed not to get upset about much less trivial things today.
I wish once again that I could make it to Tenebrae. I know I'd have a pretty good night this time around, and I also know without any doubt that there's only one person who takes this particular pain away and he will almost certainly be there.
He doesn't know he does it, and I don't know *how* he does it, but he's the only one who can. I wish I knew why.