Maybe it's something to do with coming online and reading about everyone's favourite Snow White being wonderful again.
Maybe it's that last night I drained myself completely and it seems to have had no effect.
Maybe it's that for the past week I've had company every day and now I'm very alone.
Maybe it's that yesterday morning got to me more than I thought it had but it's taken this long for me to notice through the perk.
Maybe it's the beautiful song I can't get out of my head.
Maybe it's that this morning I finally accepted that things with a certain person are not going to happen, maybe ever, and I should just hold the memories of what did in an isolated space at the back of my mind.
Maybe it's the dream I had last night where an LJ friend and I were shopping together, laughing together, where I squeaked at finding Human League badges and he looked on with an amused smile, where we went dancing together.
Maybe it's wanting to dance again; perhaps I should go to Electric Dreams tonight, I wish I thought someone would come with me.
But I'm not smiling today. I suppose I shall be taping things again.