With any luck by staying here I'll finally cause the destruction of myself.
I can't cope. I really, really can't.
I was told to call someone if things got bad; but I can't call them because it was calling them that was the wrong thing to do before. Things are that bad; but if I call then things will get worse. Argh.
I can't cope, at all. Someone help me please. ~hides under blanket~