And I'm lonely and upset and hurt and I want someone who cares to call me and listen to me cry. But there have always been people who I thought cared. People who acted as though they cared and then as though they couldn't wait to see the back of me. Wonderful.
I hurt so *much* right now.
I can remember my ex talking to me once and seeing I wasn't listening grabbing hold of me and looking up into my eyes and saying "Care...please care..."
I feel like that, now.
And I'm so desperately lonely and I wish I was somewhere else, or someone else, or that someone would come and take me away, or sit with me, or even just call me.
Later : And there are lots of wonderful people around here who do care, and I'm sorry, and I'm just tired and angry at my parents and being needlessly angsty, and I hope you'll forgive me.