"I don't think I'm in love. Maybe I just ache for the kind of easy closeness I know I could, but will never, have with him."
That was a while ago now.
I wonder if I'll ever have that with anybody - just the ability to be close and feel safe with a friend who I actually want to spend time with, without feeling like I have to impress them or anyone around them.
~kitten brushes past sofa, surreptitiously brushing away tears at same time~
Yes. I know I'm only young and there's time, and so on. Yes. I know.