I realised that while it's ok for me to want more than I have, it's not ok for me to discount what I have just because I can't have what I want right now. What I have is wonderful and precious and it would be so insane to give it up.
And I love giolla. And wildeabandon. And asrana who's typing this for me because the school computers have fucked up again.
Just thought some of you might like to know.