1) I can still get angry - possibly more quickly, actually. Have done much this morning. Threatening your friends' friends is Never A Good Thing. Must remember.
2) I can't feel happy, which I should be doing, at the moment. A little, anyway.
3) I can still feel humiliation, because it's something I inflict on myself. I currently want to hide under a blanket and not come out. Oh, and apologise lots, just for being me.
4) I can't get distracted, which I should also be doing.
Also, as my housemistress pointed out, god only knows what it's going to be like when the anaesthetic wears off.
Will spare y'all the long angsty apology for myself. 's only aimed at two people anyway, and one of them knows who both of them are. ~smile~