February 24th, 2003

(I've tried patience)

Morning.

Slept really very well, and had good dreams. They involved wechsler. I get to see him tomorrow (I hope). This is Good.

Arriving online I find I appear to have unintentionally misparaphrased babysimon. I really can't apologise enough for this.

I don't know. Nothing can go well for long enough. ~wry smile~ Never mind. I'm working tonight, so at least I'll be able to afford to go to Tenebrae. And I can't have made certain people like me any *less*, at least. ~s~ And things.

~curls up and hides under piles of housework~

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    ~sigh~
(I've tried patience)

Lord over all I survey.

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And I keep flirting with people 'harmlessly' and *then* realising I fancy them. I've really got to get that the right way round, one of these days.

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  • Current Music
    'Justify My Love', Frontline Assembly. Gorgeous.
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~sigh~

Well. I've cleared up lots of things around the house and done all sorts of things that will make it look better for when mum gets here tomorrow.
And I know it's fairly pointless, because no matter how much I do, she'll still find a hundred things to complain about.

~sigh~ I wish there was someone here to stroke me and call me a good kitten and tell me that I'd done well, because mum sure as hell won't appreciate that I've done anything.

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No, really, I was just thinking that what I really needed was another desperate crush on someone, where once they drifted into my consciousness I couldn't get them out of my mind, where I heard their voice ordering me to my knees, where I knew that when I next saw them I'd be blushing, wide-eyed, silent or too talkative. That's exactly what I was hoping for. Or, y'know. Not.

~head in hands~ Work was full of idiots. I got accused of stealing money because I found the wallet some guy had dropped down the back of one of the seats and he assumed any usher would steal. I almost wish I had now. ~sigh~ And in an extreme bid for idiot supremacy, one guy got called three times on his mobile during the concert before he realised it was his phone and left. And *we* got blamed for it.

And I can't get him out of my head (this friend of mine, not the mobile phone man, clearly). And I just typed "I can't get him out of my bed", as well. I need so much help.

Or maybe I just need to hear his voice. Ordering me to my knees.

....but he said he didn't have the time....

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  • Current Music
    'Justify My Love'. It isn't helping much.