January 21st, 2003

(I've tried patience)

Why is it always me?

Why do *I* have to have the really weird stuff happening to me? And why last night? Bah. Bah. Bah.

I had a lot of trouble getting to sleep last night, due to a combination of meepyness and general overtiredness. When I finally got to sleep - goodness knows what time it actually was - I guess things must have proceeded pretty much as normal. I remember dreaming, a little.

And then I remember absolutely clearly looking through an archway and seeing Morpheus (from Sandman) talking to a young man dressed in blue jeans and a white shirt, saying "Well, I will give you the tour, if..." breaking off and looking straight at me. He gestured at me and suddenly I was wide awake; just gone two in the morning. Not just "suddenly I woke up" but "suddenly I was awake", blinking and looking around thinking "how did I get here?"

I will swear until the day I die that that was real. And I'm so, so very glad I got to live it. But I wish it hadn't been last night, because I'm so tired.

And something's wrong with my eye, and it hurts.

E.
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  • Current Music
    'Dazzle', Siouxsie And The Banshees.
(I've tried patience)

Well, that was...abortive.

I knew I couldn't do it. I knew as soon as I got there that I wasn't going to be able to work, and shortly after arriving I met Andrew, the nice if extremely sarcastic House Manager, who asked if I was ok, and I just broke down.
I'm so tired. And so he let me come home. I really hope they don't hold it against me. I did try to go and pull myself together. But, no. So here I am. And sleep seems like a good idea.

E.
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  • Current Music
    Nothing right now.
(I've tried patience)

Cambridge, then?

Well, eventually, once I've had my singing lesson. See some of you there!

The crazed plan is this, by the way :
Tonight, Calling.
Tomorrow, spending the day with wildeabandon.
Thursday, waking up slowly, getting back down to London for another singing lesson in the afternoon, then rushing back up to Cambridge for Nemesis with nisaba and other reprobates.
Friday....I have no idea. I don't even know if I've a place to stay on Thursday night (I shall talk to wildeabandon and then start ringing people in a panicked fashion, I suspect)
Saturday, wechsler.
Sunday, back to London to spend the day with asrana.

~shakes head~ No wonder I get tired.

E.
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  • Current Music
    'Let's Go To Bed', No Angels In Bed With Mousse T.