January 11th, 2003

(I've tried patience)


That sucked. But dancing with kitty_goth, childeric and fluffymark was fun. childeric's utterly lovely, and so beautiful to watch dance. ~nod~ Yay!

But, no. The evening sucked. I was kind of expecting it to suck, but for different reasons.

Bits of it were just plain odd. Music was pretty good though. ~smile~

And at least he wasn't there. ~sigh~ Danced to 'Vagabonds' anyway, just in case he could hear me thinking.

I'm exhausted, so I guess I'll just try to sleep. Once all my nerve endings have stopped fizzing - they always do that when I'm around some people. ~deepsigh~ Meh. Some nights make me wish I *did* drink alcohol.

  • Current Music
    'Never Say Never', Romeo Void, which they should have played
(I've tried patience)

(no subject)

"You love him so much you can feel him hurting from here? Wow. That's impressive. I don't even think I love myself that much." Characters. Eh.

Well, you know. Sleep was a long time coming. Too much to think about.

Going back and reading through all the entries in my journal that were written the morning after seeing a certain person is just entertaining. And very very depressing, of course. ~s~ But still. They're all the same.

~deepsigh~ Well, depressed as I am, I'd better get moving. Perhaps flannelcat can cheer me up. I do hope so.

  • Current Music
    'Sweet Amaryllis' as sung by Andreas Scholl.
(I've tried patience)

There are things people say that stay with you.

"I didn't really want to, but I was too tired to say no."

"Being with him is like coming home. But I left home because I wanted to, a long time ago."

"I don't really mind if we're in the same dream or awake, as long as we're together."

"I'm ill."

"You're out at a club, they're all at home with boyfriends who wear Ben Sherman shirts."
"My boyfriend wears Ben Sherman shirts!"

"You almost sound like you've been paying attention...no-one ever has."

"By the way......nice boots."

"Probably because I'm really ugly."
"No. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. No! No. ...er, no."

"He is cute, isn't he? ~grin~"
"Don't laugh at me!"
"...I'm not. I'm laughing at myself."

"What have you done to me?"

Just those moments that stick for some reason.

  • Current Music
    'Proud', Heather Small. No idea why & I wish it would go.