December 25th, 2002

(I've tried patience)

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I half didn't want to come online today, because I know what's been going on with some people, and I don't really want to run through it again. However, I've got to come on sooner or later, so. Here I am. ~sigh~

This morning was horrific. I think I saved a life - maybe even more than one - and I certainly saved a few relationships. Not by doing anything dramatic; just by knowing people. But it almost cost me my life and my sanity - on Christmas morning, for pete's sake, when I couldn't call anyone and say "help!" - so I hope to all the gods that it'll have worked. I'm broken at the moment, very broken, and I won't have a chance to do anything about it for quite a while.

Christmas with my family, though, has been great. No arguments - yet - and truly wonderful presents, so I'm happy about that. I guess things just couldn't be great on the family and friends fronts at the same time, or something.

I broke my own heart this morning. I know it's still Christmas Day for you guys out there, but when it's stopped being Christmas Day, I'd appreciate being called by anyone who's got a spare minute. I really need someone to talk to. I'm sorry this has happened on what must be the least convenient day of the year. I'm sorry. But, please. I kind of need help.

Thank you.

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Ah, god. I'm actually sitting here whimpering in pain. I'd be laughing at myself if it didn't hurt so much.

I wish it wasn't Christmas Day. I wish K wasn't in deepest elsewhere - because I want to call him. Likewise dennyd. Heck, I might even find the courage to call grahamb if it was any other blasted day of the year.

I need to talk to someone. ~sigh~ Hell.

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