December 13th, 2002

(I've tried patience)

~giggles~

Ohhe'ssopretty. ~bounce~ Dancing shoes and tight glam rock shirt tonight, and I don't know how I'll be feeling but I know what I'll be doing. I think I like it, oh, I think I love it. What I give has no meaning attached unless you want it to. Don't forget and don't run scared. You've nothing to be scared of. Not yet.

ANYway...

Don't mind me, it's just early and I've got hold of a small perk.

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  • Current Music
    "Everything Taboo" from the Taboo soundtrack.
(I've tried patience)

Hmm. Interesting.

There now seems to be a fairly even split between the part of my mind labelled "submissive" and the part labelled "I don't know quite what I'm doing but it's lots of fun".
Yes, it is all his fault, but I'm not just thinking in that way about *him*, which is why this is interesting. There's at least three other people and I find it bizarre, but not to the extent that I want to say to my mind "stop, this isn't right". So. Interesting.
's anyone else gone through this who could reassure me, or something? You might not believe this, but it frightens me, a little.

I've got to see a man about a job this morning. So I should probably put all such thoughts from my mind.

Until tonight, anyway. ~g~

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  • Current Music
    Symphony for Builders and Cleaning Lady.
I can fly!

And bounce! And sigh. And bounce!

Up and down like Jason Donovan, I swear. ~shakes head~

Saw a man about a job. Will have another job to add to my collection next year. Actually what the orchestra I'll be doing admin stuff for are doing is wonderful and fascinating, and I'll be very glad to be involved.

And got back and read friends page and sighed. Eventually I will be able to avoid the depression it induces knowing what a wonderful time everyone I want to be with has with someone else I want to be with. I don't want it to upset me as I'm truly happy for all concerned. It'll get better.

And then checked user info and saw someone else has listed me as a friend. But I didn't expect it to be you! Thank you! ~smile~

B-Movie tonight, emomisy this afternoon. ~bounce~
emomisy is still a man with a big stick, so this is good. And this evening I will be a kitten with claws, and hopefully able to use them, and this is good, too.

And I must must must go and make cards. Must. Bad me. Someone tell me to go and make cards, or I'll be sitting here for ages...

Later : See? Still here. ~s~ But I'm going, honest. But, yay! nisaba's making it down for B-Movie! Yay! ~bounces~

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  • Current Music
    'Pearl In The Shell', Howard Jones.