December 9th, 2002

(I've tried patience)

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God, I don't want to be awake yet. Didn't sleep till three and now I have to leave to catch a train home (thus probably best to call my mobile if you need me - I do have 'net access there but I have to keep begging my parents, heh)

~shakes head~ I hurt so much today. For no reason at all, the last few days I haven't been able to stop thinking about giolla and it's meant that every five minutes I want to burst into tears. I've got to go home so I can't get hold of anyone to hug me, and I don't know quite what I'm going to do. I won't be back in Cambridge until next week; that hurts, too. ~sigh~

Anyway, never mind. I have a train to catch. Although I'm definitely going to miss it. ~s~

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    Heh. "I'm wounded and I know it but I'm strong enough..."
(I've tried patience)

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Home, parents, business as usual.
Online, G, other G, K, business as usual.
Everything hurts. Everything. Business as usual.

Singing later will probably make me feel better for a time. But sometimes I honestly don't know why I'm carrying on when I know that at least one deep and terrible hurt in my life will never go away. Ah, well.

When I'm feeling less upset I'll have time to get angry about just how much someone isn't listening to me. But right now it's just making me cry more.

I must see if I can find that Stanley blade, I've not seen or used it in ages.

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    Highlights from Taboo.
I can fly!

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Ach, I know better than to read other people's survveys, I've made that mistake before. Stupid me. My bad. Bah. ~kicks self~

Yeah, everything still sucks, but Dead Ringers really is very good. Now off to do the washing up and finish the overly ostentatious packaging for emarkienna's Christmas present.

Oh, stupid me, that really has fucked things up immeasurably further. Damn, damn, why wasn't I born with a brain that had self-preservation pre-installed?

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