December 8th, 2002

(I've tried patience)

I dreamed about Cthulhu, about being dennyd and chasing Homer Simpson through New York..

...I think I need help.

More shopping today, then. Yay!
Must remember it's only the beginning of the month and I still need to have money...really...
But. Camden! Cyberdogbouncebouncebouncebouncebounce - I went and stood inside it for about a minute yesterday and felt totally regenerated. And to think I used to hate it so much.

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For some reason I suddenly wish for the scent of clove cigarettes. nisaba, I miss you.

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  • Current Music
    'Down Boy', Holly Valance.
(I've tried patience)

More presents, and things!

Got a few more things today - not as many as I'd hoped, but I will go home and pick up more cash and see what I can do.

Camden. Is full. Of stripy tights.
For reasons best known to...probably only one of you, this is...not conducive to concentration. ~g~

But anyway. I bought more stuff! And saw ladymoonray and swisstone, which was lovely. And had a generally good day, which will later turn into a good evening which I will be spending with pringle. ~bounce~ It's been at least a month and a half...

I'm really very worried I've somehow managed to make someone I care deeply about not want to talk to me; I can't work out how I've done it, though, so I'll just hope it's only circumstance, and wait.

And everyone has to come to B-Movie next Friday because asrana's Christmas present to me is a fantastic top which I'll be wearing, and everyone has to see it. Silver glittery Marc Bolan on black...can't be bad. ~bounce bounce bounce~

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  • Current Music
    Opening track from Taboo soundtrack.
I can fly!

~laughs~

Don't mind me, I'm just going to go and hide in a box for ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and...

...oh, wait, it'll be too dark to see, in there. I'll have to do the hating myself aggressively with bladed instruments first, then.

Later : OK, before the rush (who am I kidding? but, y'know) I should point out that I am ok, really. I'm just making resolutions left right and centre never to get involved with anyone ever again *ever*.
I'm eighteen years old, for christ's sake. I've been locked in a girls' boarding school for the last five years. I'm young and fucking scared. Give me some kind of break, boys. Please.

Um, ok, I'm crying, so maybe I'm not all that ok. But I'll be all right. And I'm going to see pringle now, and he always helps. ~smile~

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  • Current Music
    compounds the irony, so I'm not going to say what it is
(I've tried patience)

~smile~

pringle makes everything all right. Always. Yay. ~smallkittenbounce~ I love him.

I love dennyd, too, for being pleased to hear from me (among other things, obviously).

And as for you...you will not be hurt. I will open my wings to you and I will take you away and the hurt. will. stop. I will break you open and then I will put you back together and hold you so very close.
I will.
Damn it.

~sigh~

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  • Current Music
    'The Message', Grandmaster Flash, for some reason.