November 15th, 2002

(I've tried patience)

Not stalking, just...looking. Loving. Wishing.

It's been ages since I've been back to this website...since February, in fact. It might be said I've been being a bad stalker, but there's so much to look at...
(Oh, and. Camgoth website? Is that the same Gareth I know? ~curious~ Anyway...)

So now I'm back here, looking at the photographs that led me to one of my best friends, and reading. Because I didn't read, when I was last here. But, it seems, I should have.

And oh! Look! Pretty lyrics... ~smile~

This post brought to you by the "but he's too beautiful for it to have to make sense!" part of my brain. I'm sorry. ~s~ But he is.

Also, apparently I can sleep in my spiky collar after all. ~smile~ Which is good, if bizarre - I think at one point I did dream that it had gone through my hand, though...

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  • Current Music
    It's silence; I'm thinking too hard for music. ~s~
I can fly!

Oh, hell.

I knew there was something I was supposed to be doing today. I had a singing lesson arranged. And I forgot. And my parents are going to kill me. But not, I think, if I get there first. ~cries~

Eh. Bladed instruments are once again going to have to be my friends, and the twin arms of a pair of scissors are going to have to replace the arms of any friend I might wish here to hold me.

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  • Current Music
    'Take Of Me', Alison Moyet.
(I've tried patience)

(no subject)

So broken right now it almost doesn't hurt any more. Why do I keep letting them do this to me? Why does what I give have to mean so little to them when it means so much to me? Why do they never notice how much it means to me in the first place?

In unrelated news, the usual post-Calling setlist trawl has netted 'Ave Dementia' by The Marionettes, 'The Sparrows And The Nightingales' by Wolfsheim (ok, ok, should I be getting hold of more of their stuff, or are the two songs I have just their best?), 'PanzerMensch' by And One (because, Pyro dancing, and stuff - oh yeah, and it's quite good, as well)...if only I could net the Sneaky Bat Machine as well...~s~

~sigh~ Oh, god, ouch. Perhaps I *should* go out tonight...perhaps I will...aegidian, where's the place again? ~s~

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  • Current Music
    'The Sparrows And The Nightingales', Wolfsheim.
(I've tried patience)

Hmm...

...perhaps it will do me good to go out tonight. Wish to goodness I were able to get to the Ballroom, but another time, maybe.

Rang the guy at the Wigmore who I'm potentially working for/with/whatever - he was really lovely, which is good 'cause I'm awful at phoning people and was veryvery scared.

Anyway. I seem to feel like going out, which is good.

I miss people, though. ~sigh~
Hmm, Saturday night tomorrow. I wonder...

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  • Current Music
    'Smack My Bitch Up', The Prodigy.