August 17th, 2002

I can fly!

I. Hate. Feeling. Humiliated. Hate. Hate. So much.

~shakes head~ I swear, if I ever mention stalkage again, someone slap me in a convincing fashion, please.
Sigh.
You ever feel that sick horror land like a big bar of lead in your chest? Well, I think that's what's just replaced the heart I cut out just over a week ago. Sick, dull horror. You're going to be laughed at. Everyone's going to laugh at you. Rightly so, too. Why are you so *stupid*? Everyone's going to laugh at you, and the people you want to like you are going to hate you - even people you've never met. Way to go, Em. ~cries~

Eh. And I forgot to give you random lyrics yesterday, even though I knew what they should be, so they're here! Of course.
Oh! And today's are here! I like. ~smile~

Please. Please. If you do think you know who I'm stalking, keep it to yourself. It's...it's more important than you think. Please. For me?

E.
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"I've been here for years
And though I know you want me gone
I like it here..."
  • Current Music
    'Phostographt', Crossover. *Brilliant*. Truly.
(I've tried patience)

Um, on the other hand...

...the tape I've made for asrana still rocks like a big electronic rock thing - I think it's one of the best I've made - and, what's more, http://www.fanfiction.net is working on my computer again! Yay!
Leaving me free to discover pieces of genius like this.
Belar, that's scary. ~g~

Um, never mind. Read some David Eddings, and you'll understand. Or, possibly not.

The sheer awfulness of all the David Eddings fanfic is really making me think that I should once-and-for-all write up Javelin's autobiography. I can't think of a reason not to, and I doubt I've forgotten much of it, and I could do it a sight better than that lot.
~laughs~ Danger, frustrated writer alert...

E.
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  • Current Music
    'Kathy's Song (Come Lie Next To Me)', Apoptygma Berzerk.
(I've tried patience)

I mean, what?

Sometimes I just don't understand what's going on in my head at all. Like, at all.
Today is one of those days, for various reasons.
I feel like I'm likely to go into hysterics (bad hysterics, rather than giggly hysterics) at the slightest provocation, so it's probably a good idea if I leave you all alone and you do the same for me, for the rest of today. And I can make asrana more tapes and ignore the strange thoughts in my head.

E.
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  • Current Music
    'Nurse', Ms. Kittin & The Hacker. Gorgeous.
(I've tried patience)

Opera and Thai food. My, how cultured.

Spent most of this afternoon cooking Thai green curry fishcakes which I couldn't eat, but at least it made my mum happy. ~smile~ Hey, look at me, I got something right for once!

Also did most of the 3rd tape for asrana.
Finished the evening watching Carmen live from Glyndebourne, with the splendidly named Marcus Haddock as Don Jose. He was phenomenally boring - I haven't seen a less convincing actor since Sunset Beach was on. Currently recording Cruel Intentions, 'cause I don't think I can bear to watch it tonight.

And I'm hoping to speak to blu_dragonfly, as well, if luck is with me, which is debatable today...things have been going well and badly at the same time, somehow.

Night all. ~smile~

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  • Current Music
    'Cover', Kosheen.