April 29th, 2002

(I've tried patience)

Oh. Um, eek?

~guiltguiltguiltguiltguiltguiltguiltguiltguiltguilt~

Note to self :
Try to never feel sorry for yourself. Let everyone else worry about that.

Oh god I feel so bad...

~buries head under duvet~ Fucking wake me when this is all over...

Best of it is, I can't apologise. I can't say anything.
But oh, I am sorry. I am so very very sorry.

E.
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  • Current Music
    'Deeper Underground', Jamiroquai, I think.
Music

Music?

No - The Music.
I'm so impressed with that song. Also, the singer reminds me oddly of the person I'm absolutely not falling for. ~smile~

And Jewel seems to be feeling kindly towards me. She's being almost friendly.

And it's Monday.

Gods willing, this will soon be over.

Incidentally, we were in Latin this morning discussing mythology and stuff, and I wondered what led the world to be so eager to dismiss the Egyptian and Greek 'mythologies', while they uphold Christian, Muslim, Jewish, and even Celtic myth as solid religion?
I expect I'm being simplistic again. ~shrug~

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  • Current Music
    'The People', The Music. I do like it.
(I've tried patience)

~blinks~

If you know someone fancies/loves/is in love with/whatever you, is it honestly the done thing to rattle on, in their presence, about how attractive you find specific other people?
Edit : This apparently wasn't clear enough - what I meant was, if you know someone is in love with you but you absolutely don't return their feelings, rather than someone with whom you are in a relationship.

I for one can't bear it when people do that, although I'm aware I'm over-sensitive. But would that upset you?

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  • Current Music
    The same.
(I've tried patience)

I *can* do this.

But I can only do so much more of this.

~jumps off the sofa and crawls underneath it~ ~curls up~

I need him. I don't need him *enough*. By the time I do need him enough, it will be too late.

Oh, christ. ~runs a hand through her hair~

The Great War Of Jealousy vs. Guilt, part 2 : Jealousy 75,000, Guilt 75,001.

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  • Current Music
    'Hella Good', No Doubt.
(I've tried patience)

I broke. ~s~

Sometime around five, I realised that I couldn't go on. So, I haven't. My emotions are all in a little box somewhere, and I'll let them out again when I can.

Until then, it's walls, walls, everywhere...but at least it doesn't *hurt* any more.

~smile~

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  • Current Music
    Whatever's playing in the hall...