February 24th, 2002

(I've tried patience)

Anyone seen my jealousy?

Actually I think it's at least partly due to making myself think like I think TNSSA thinks (make sense of *that* one). TNSSA has a very rational view of the world - a fun one, but a very rational one, and one in which jealousy doesn't really figure.
But it's very, very strange, because normally I'm an extremely jealous person.
Oh my god. Like my drama teacher said.
Has that gone? Has that jealousy actually gone? Because if it has, the chances of my being able to live the way I'd like to have just improved by a factor of lots.
In the real world, the *actual* NSSA has spoken to me comparatively little. However, as with roleplaying anyone, getting into their personality has an effect on the mind, and getting into TNSSA's has had a *good* effect.
So thank you, TNSSA. Thank you so much.
And thank you G for not minding when I suddenly become other people. ~s~

There's recent things I've surprised myself by not being jealous over. However, much more bizarre is that there's a few things on LJ I used to weep with jealousy over, and I've just reread them, and they only made me smile.*



*Not jealous. Not. Jealous. I don't believe it.
Envious, yes, but not jealous.
  • Current Music
    'The Garden', John Foxx. All hail TNSSA, who rocks my world.
(I've tried patience)


My shoulders are killing me. Ow. Ow. Ow.

I don't know why, either. Ow.

  • Current Music
    'Like A Miracle', John Foxx.
(I've tried patience)

~tilts head~

I've read this thing roughly fifty times now, I've calculated.
That's really, really sad.
On the one hand, I can't believe I don't have anything better to do. On the other hand, I'm not sure there's anything better one *could* do.
Only a matter of time before that Be My Icon thing comes into play again and Lex catches me with a shrine in my bedroom.../Smallville reference.

*Bored*. Sigh.
Later : "Sigh", yes; mind you, my LJ-detective-work is fun. ~smiles~ I do wish I was better at working out what dates things must have happened, but once I've done it I can go and *look*, and then...yeah.
~rolls around purring~
Even later : ~chokes~ And the last time I read *that* was back when I thought she was female.
Yay for rereading LJs!
~claws at things~

  • Current Music
    'This Is Our Sound', Ladytron.