December 10th, 2001

(I've tried patience)

Cassie always has a quiz for me...

1.FULL name: Emily Hannah Woolf (though my middle names have variously read Kheldara, Jenny, Dawn, Troy and Dove.)
2.nicknames: Em, Ems, Squems, Wemily. Use the last one and you die. Howwibly. and state born in: Brighton, comfortably off. (Since we don't have states in this here country...)
4.state you live in now: Still comfortable. ~ggls~
5.birthdate: 19/06/84
6.astrological sign: Gemini Roedean
8.hobbies: Music, writing, reading, music, glittery stuff, gay men, music, reading, writing, music.
9.sports that you play/enjoy: Netball and badminton. Beyond that...oh no.
10.height: 6'
11.weight: I don't know.
12.shoe size: Between 9 and 10.
13.right or lefty: Right

1. What do you think of the way you look?: Could be better, but it's not so bad.
2. What do you think about your attitude?: Could be worse, but it's *very* bad...
3. What do you think about life after death?: I'd like to believe in it.
4. What do you think about karma?: Well, Cassie, that may have been "so old" but I'd never heard it and had to pick myself up off the floor...bwahahahaha...anyway. Karma. Inspired Boy George to write an annoying, but good, song.
5. What do you think about love?: What am I supposed to think? it happens. It hurts.
6. What do you think about fate?: He has a capital F but no beard.
7. What do you think about your self?: Incomplete.
8. What do you tell yourself if times get hard?: These things are sent to try us. Yeah, sure, it's trite. I was upset in a drama class once and my teacher came over with a tiny bit of paper with that written on and gave it to me. It moved me so much. Gah.
9. What would you give your life for?: Most people. Anyone I care about. Or so that the music could go on.
10. What do you think about your first love?: I'm glad he turned out gay. Mwahahahahaha.
11. What do you think about the first person that loved you?: She annoys THE FUCK out of me.
12. What are you scared of?: Lots of things.
13. What was the saddest moment of your life so far?: Sarah.
14. What would life be without friends?: Empty, but manageable. Believe me, I know.
15. Without family?: Unbearable. And therefore over. I expect.

*The Dream Side of You*
1.Do you dream a lot at night?: Yep.
2.Do you dream in black and white, or color?: I dream in pictures, but the sound is muted.


Oh my god, I'm so sad. ANYway.

3.Do you remember any of your dreams?: Yah. Almost all of them.
4.Where is your dream make out spot?: LOL the moment it''s's a chair, right? But a particular chair. Yes.
5.What is your dream kiss like?: Yeah, I'm with Cassie, it involves two boys and no women. ~ggls~ But for me...gah, I hate kissing.
6.What is your dream job?: Oh hell no, the answer's way too obvious. Bwahahahahaha.
7.Where is your dream house?: It's in Liverpool at the moment. ~yearns~
8.Where is your dream vacation?: Chicago. Or, indeed, Liverpool.
9.Do you believe that your dreams are a gateway to your soul?: No. Otherwise I have a really weird soul. Ever weirder than I thought.

1.Parents names: Felicity and Gabriel
2.Do you live with both of them?: Yes.
3.Any siblings? Two half-brothers.
4.Do you get along with your siblings?: Not really. One of them I never talk to, the other I'm too similar to.
5.Do you get along with your parents?: No. Which teenager does?

*Do you...*
1.Do you write in a journal or diary?: Hello!
2.Do you keep an organizer?: Nah.
3.Do you believe in love at first sight?: Probably.
4.Do you believe that every person has one soul mate: Not everyone, but some people do.
5.Do you believe in god?: No.
6.Do you believe in everyone (even the beyond helpless)?: Honestly? No.
7.Do you believe in having a good education?: Well, I've had one of the best, and look what it's done for me!
8.Do you believe in horoscopes?: No.
9.Do you believe in yourself?: Some days.
10.Do you shower daily?: Yeah.
11.Do you like this survey so far?: It's not bad, pretty unoriginal.
12.Do you like the person that sent you this?: Took it from Cassie's journal, and I don't just like her, I worship her.
13.Do you cry easily?: Yes indeed.
14.Do you believe in Heaven?: It's a song by Bryan Adams.
15.Do you believe in hell?: Yes.
16.Do you believe in reincarnation?: No, but Boy George does, ask him.

1.favorite day of the week: FRIDAY!
2.favorite ice-cream: Ben and Jerry's. Almost anything.
3.favorite movies: VG, Hedwig, Labyrinth, Wedding Singer.
4.favorite actors: Cruise, Micko, Joaquim Phoenix...~frowns~ Dunno.
5.favorite actresses: Mandana Jones, Drew Barrymore.
6.favorite quote: Right this second it's "She used to be a diplomat, but now she's down the laundromat..." from 'Highly Strung' by Spandau Ballet
7.favorite songs: Toooooo many to list.
8.favorite music groups: Duran and anyone 80s and anyone from mid-90s britpop and current eurotrance.
9.favorite music singers: George, Marc Almond, James Walsh, etc...
10.favorite holiday: Hallowe'en.
11.favorite season: Winter.
12.favorite colors: Black, purple, electric blue!
13.favorite flowers: Roses (cliché) and this weed that my nan has growing in her garden that's way too pretty to take out. And fresias. And...lots of things. Flowers. Yay!
14.favorite book: Don't have one favourite.
15.favorite school subject: English.

*When you hear ___ you think of..*
1.Baseball: Yes...I actually *do* think of sex. Tragic. ~ggls~
2.Jeff: ROFL Pete....ROFL ROFL ROFL Oh *dear*....Bwahahahahaha...
4.Warm apple pie: Yes, Mr. survey writer, I did see American Pie, and it did suck. Badly.
5.Socks: Washing machines. Or the god of laundry.
6.Fish: Friday.
7.Nail: ......gah. My brain just crucified Pete. ~hides from self~
8.Amanda: DIE, bitch, DIE DIE DIE! BOTH of them in fact...the one from Highlander can fuck right off, too...
9.Swimming: Um...never mind.
10.Bologna: Scritti Politti's first single, bizarrely entitled 'Scank Bloc Bologna'.
11.Giant Eagle: Uh?
12.A nun: "Hey Sister Josephine, you sip one final Benedictine before your au revoir, a right funny nun you are..." Tee hee.
13.The # 69: Ooooh, I wonder what I'm supposed to think.
14.School: Hogwarts and all things therein, including the Twins having sex in a disused classroom, 'cause, like, *that* would never happen.

1.Who is your overall~* top of the line~* best friend?: I don't have one.
2.Who is your 2nd best friend?: By definition...~rolls eyes~
3.Who is your 3rd best friend?: ...
4.Who is your 4th best friend?: .....
5.If there are anymore, you can list them here: Oh, shush.

6.Is the funniest: May, Nads, Sara, Chris.
7.Do you tell your dreams to: G. ~s~
8.Do you tell your fears to: G, Chris, Tasha, Niche.
9.Do you go to for advice: G, Tasha, Vanessa, Sara.
10.Have you dreamt about: Almost everyone at some point. Even Chris. ~ggls~ With a washing line.
11.Knows everything about you: Nobody.
12.Do you tell your secrets to: I don't do secrets. If people ask, I tell. Having said that...Sara and Odile, usually.
13.Is the most shy: G and Chris.
14.Is the loudest: Toad.
15.Can't you live without: I can't live without any of them.
16.Is the most trendy: Eh...Sara?
17.Can be the most annoying: Toad.
18.Lives the farthest away from you: May and Tasha.
19.Lives closest to you: Ruthie.
20.Are you most like: I've got things in common with all of them.
21.What do you look for in a friend?: The same things everyone does. Someone who makes me laugh and someone who'll tell me their problems.

1.boyfriend/girlfriend's name: Chris.
2.crush: Many people.
3.where does that special someone live?: Tooooo far away...~sigh~
4.things you like in the opposite sex: A tendency to wear makeup, soft leather skirts over trousers and reall really really REALLY huge boots. Or little ones with clicky heels, like Nick's.
5.when was your first kiss: U4. ~shudder~ Eww. Eww, eww, eww.
6.are you a virgin: Yes. Or, no.
7.the most romantic thing anyone has done for you was: One person in my life has sent me a Valentine's card, and I think I count that above everything else, my heart I know it will never happen again, and it meant a hell of a lot to me.
8.which is more important- personality or looks?: They're both pretty important, but personality is the most.
9.first boyfriend/girlfriend: Tash.

*Creative Q's*
1.If you had the choice to spin around the sun, or walk on the moon, which would you choose and why?: LOL "Creative"....hahaha...walk on the moon, so I could sing the Police song...
2.What color do you think best describes you and why?: ELECTRIC BLUE FOR ME!
3.If you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing: Turning invisible and following Pete around for the next week. Mwahahahaha.
4.Would you ever share you heart completely with someone else? If yes- who? if no- why not?: I don't know if I could.
5.Which sense could you not live without, and why?: Hearing. But I couldn't live without sight either, not really.
6.Have you ever written on a mirror? If so what did you write?: I LOVE SOFT's still there...~ggls~
7.If you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why?: Um, I'd have gone and talked to Gemma last night.
8.Do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed indoors?: Indoors. My Mountieness extends only to taste. ~ggls~
9.What is the most beautiful thing in the world?: A beautiful man in makeup. ~sigh~ Or, indeed, Pete. Or both. Or...*both*. ~ggls LOTS~
10.Name one person whose changed your life for the better: Lots of people have, but G's right up there.
11.What can someone do to you that would turn you on fully- physically or mentally- or both?: ROFL A guy kissing another guy always works...seriously.
12.If you knew you were going to pass away within the next few days, what would be the last thing you say, and who would you say that to?: G : I love you.
13.What is one thing that can make you smile no matter what mood you're in?: BMB, Simon's comments on Ask Katy, several songs, someone giving me something.
14.If you could meet anyone, past or present, dead or alive, who would you meet and why?: Nick...why not?
15.And finally, what makes you you?: Music.

  • Current Music
    'The Last Of The Famous International Playboys', Morrissey.
(I've tried patience)

PS, asrana?

Guess what?
You 'write' as well as Lucy.
Because you both used exactly the same phrase and it's fucking *good*.


So nyah.

  • Current Music
    Still the same.
(I've tried patience)

You learn some interesting things while watching Kerrang! TV...

And you pick up some bizarre new bands, as well. Not that they're new, they're just new to *me*...but then, I've only just entered the world of Kerrang! music...
There's a band with the inspired name of "Anyone", with a singer who looks like the attractive mad guy in System Of A Down and sounds like the man from BoyHitsCar, which is a *good* thing.
I like.
There's also...I don't know how I miss these things...a *Norwegian*, of all things...who calls himself Mortiis. And, um - he looks like...well...this. I think any of those pictures would be more than bizarre enough to convey a sense of what he's like.
I quote from the site biography (and please, while reading this, don't forget he's from *Norway*, not Middle Earth) :
"Elfin, batlike, inhabiting shadows and shunning company..........grotesquely featured, razor taloned and inhuman in appearance........the result of a misshapen mind, a fertile yet polluted imagination, the ultimate example of creation replacing creator. Mortiis - the concept born of dissatisfaction, desire and even mild dementia - is a being like no other, with a story to tell that knows no end.
Neither in this world or the next, the space in time that Mortiis occupies is one where the imagination is King, and the farthest reaches of the mind is God. Mortiis is a concept that allows anything to become a possibility, where the only restraint is the limits the creator imposes on himself. For the world Mortiis inhabits is self-created, ever-evolving and endless - an escapism of the most extreme form that means that Mortiis lives literally between worlds, displaced from where he started and headed to who knows where?
They say that the lines between fantasy and reality are often blurred - never has this been more true than in the case of Mortiis, the alter ego of his withdrawn, obscure earthly creator. In pursuing an existence so unique and solitary, Mortiis is open to criticism, normally from those with a singular lack of imagination or drive - the very bonds Mortiis has striven to shake off. For the whole Mortiis concept and search is concerned with the eternal quest for answers - what lies beyond our comprehension, how far can we expand our minds, where does the possibility end?
So far Mortiis has yet to draw the line - his physical appearance, (striking, seething, enigmatic, imposing, elf-demon), is at odds with his music (epic ambient-based soundtales), yet the apparent contradiction of such an overwhelming image coupled with such a laidback musical style works, precisely because it challenges the accepted perception of how things should be. Despite outward appearances, black metal this is not - in Mortiis' world, things have gone far beyond the conventional."

The really, wonderfully ironic thing about this is that, to a certain extent, his music's quite good...I don't know where they got the idea that it's ambient-based, from what I've heard it's melodic goth-rock in the vein of The Cult, but's not bad.

The site was last updated in January of this year - really dedicated fans, then...but from various places around the web, I'm how totally barking mad this guy is.
"Mortiis is not just another concept of a project, this is a tale that has no real beginning nor an end. You will, as you follow the development of this eternal era and world, learn about the different spirits, trolls, goblins, ghouls and many other creatures. You will learn about their ranks, their might and magic, their past, their shapes and looks, eventual armament and weapons. You will learn about the war slaves who build everything they're commanded to. The many kinds of dragons, wolf hordes, the seemingly bottomless valleys, dark woods and high ice mountains with the endless snowstorms and the living fog. The endless seas. There is the black crystal prison. This is perhaps what is most feared by the good folk. The black wizards are mystical black robed spirits with long, old pointy hats. The high tower, standing in the midst of the ruler's castleyard. This tower is the great centre of all power.
Those secrets and very many others you will learn fom the great book written by the ruler himself, in his own hand-writing. This is a great book and it contains all hidden and dreadful secrets concerning himself, his power over the stars and time, the mighty and legendary stargate (his most fearful weapon), the terrible blackspell that haunts and binds the victims and all their future generations to thralldom."



It has to be said, a lot of the stuff about him just makes one laugh, although patting him on the head is probably not an option....nevertheless...out of the black dungeonic obscurity rose a new lord...with really pointy ears...

We think he's one to watch. Or watch out for. Or something.

Oh, and everything he's ever released is out on vinyl, too.

  • Current Music
    'We Are Glass', Gary Numan.
(I've tried patience)

~small smile~

There are few songs from this year that can make me the kind of wistfulhappy that I am at the moment. One of them is "Black Cloud" by Crazy Town.

I don't know whether the backing is a sample or not, but if it is, I want a copy of the song they took it from.

"A thousand cigarettes won't change the way we feel
The pressure's fading now, can you bear the thought of knowing truth?"

As a band they're not great, though undoubtedly one of the best to come out of the painful seething morass that is teenybopper rap-rock. But that song is just...great. I love it so much.

"I've got a little black cloud that follows me everywhere I go, it takes over me..."

  • Current Music
    'Black Cloud', Crazy Town.
(I've tried patience)

A slightly highbrow and VERY SILLY Toast Poem for Cassie...because I do love her...

"Of all the myriad host
of things to eat, I boast,"
said a small piece of toast,
"That I am loved the most.

"Though sluttish apple pies
May part their pastry thighs
And scurrilous french fries
May flirt with longing sighs
To curry favour,

"I do declare I am,
(Much more than ham or clam
More even than tinned spam)
The gastronome's grand dame
Of luscious flavour.

"Of all the myriad host
of things to eat, I boast,"
said a small piece of toast,
"That I am loved the most."

  • Current Music
    The same.
(I've tried patience)


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I feel so gratified.

  • Current Music
    Incongruously, 'Gotta Get Thru This' by Daniel Bedingfield.
(I&#39;ve tried patience)

Your mission, should you choose to accept it... to find pictures of Brian from Hollyoaks.
You will have to brave the dangers of Flash, fight the demons of Confusion In Navigation, etcetera, etcetera.

But it'll be worth it.

Go here. If you can make it beyond the boundaries of Flashness, click "Hollyoaks On Screen". Then, "Character Biographies". Then, in the manner of one trying to hook a duck at a fairground, play with the scrolling menu till you find "Brian Drake". Click.

~sigh~ I used to watch that show allll the time. Fancied the trousers off Rob Hawthorn.

What? What? So he turned into a psychotic murderer and then died. So?

  • Current Music
    The same.