August 30th, 2001

(I've tried patience)

Ach...

My dad is such a fucking narrow-minded bastard...I know everyone keeps telling me that I love him really, but I beg to differ. ~sigh~ Still, I'm not going to bother arguing with him any more - I think the best thing to do is just let him talk at me and then not say anything back, just walk off. And take it out on my Essexgirl doll...~g~ I think only asrana will understand that.
Ah well. I can't expect him to care. I was, after all, a mistake. ~s~ Which is one of the nicest things he's ever said to me, of course.

If I pour all my angry energy today into sorting bits of paper and wishing you a better day than you have been having, perhaps I'll feel better.

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  • Current Music
    Zoot Woman, 'Nobody Knows (Part I)' (Melodic DM-type song.)
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~laughs~

~shakes head~ Should have known it wasn't me. It never is, is it?

~curls up in a ball and cries and cries~ I want to mean something to someone for once...

Oh well. ~shrugs~ What was I thinking?

E.
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  • Current Music
    Zoot Woman, 'The Model' (Clanky Kraftwerk cover version)
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Remind me not to read other people's journals...

...~shakes head~ Honestly. Refuge, sanctuary, and all the rest of it, with somebody who...well, it's like Nick going to John for comfort in 1988. Yes, Nick. Of course you're more important than the drugs. ~laugh~ Yeah, right.

~sigh~ I know I'm more...I dunno...uptight...about drugs than most people my age. But they're fucking stupid, stupid, stupid, *stupid* things. What's the point of making yourself happy artificially? And knowing it's not real, for god's sake! It's just idiotic.

And now I'm cross. ~sigh~ As well as upset.

So, today's looking good then.

E.
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    ZW
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Sigh...

~shakes head~ Love is not a negative emotion.

Even when it hurts and tears and rips and burns the way it sometimes can, it is *not* negative.

~gets ready to kick the living daylights out of another Essexgirl doll~ Prepare to meet your maker (probably some kid in Taiwan), bitch!

I *was* feeling a little...um...~thinks~...I was feeling like I was part of a large minority, or a really laughably small "everybody game". But ^that is more important. And you are far more important than I am. So there we go.

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  • Current Music
    Rufus Wainwright, "Greek Song".
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...And asrana's music questionnaire...

Favourite bands: Duran Duran, Erasure, Suede, Pulp, Menswe@r, Air, Japan, Kajagoogoo, A Flock Of Seagulls, The Human League, Ultravox, Soft Cell, Blancmange, T. Rex, Bis, Visage and many many more.
Three favourite tunes to dance along to: Currently, 'California' by Rufus Wainwright, 'Ieya' by Toyah and 'Too Much Information' by Duran Duran. But it changes. Often.
Three favourite albums at the moment: 'Poses' by Rufus Wainwright. 'Fade To Grey - The Best Of' by Visage. 'Vienna', Ultravox.
Best live shows ever: So far, and I haven't seen much, not even Duran has beaten The Human League, ABC and Culture Club at the Brighton Centre in 1998.
Favourite live music venue: Bournemouth International Centre. You can get so close to the band, and everyone's standing so there's none of that "er, should we get up and dance?" feeling you get at Wembley or wherever.
What songs rock your world at the moment: Oh, god. Right. 'Ieya', Toyah. (Totally bonkers and features the line "Zion, Zooberon, Na Na Na Na Hey Debauch!") 'Acrylic Afternoons', Pulp. (Jarvis Cocker's *voice*! ~faints~) 'Read My Lips', Duran. (Not one of their best, but hey.) 'White China (live)', Ultravox. 'Nobody Knows (Part 2)', Zoot Woman. 'Poses', Rufus Wainwright. 'Felt Mountain', Goldfrapp. 'Pencil Skirt', Pulp. 'Being Boiled', The Human League. 'You Think You're A Man', Divine. 'Two Tribes', Frankie Goes To Hollywood. 'Situation (US 12" version)', Yazoo. 'Take Me Home', Sophie Ellis-Bextor. (Hate her, love the song.) 'Scream If You Wanna Go Faster', Geri Halliwell. Rather embarrassingly, 'Her Ghost In The Fog', Cradle Of Filth. (I think it's just Dani.) 'Tesla Girls', OMD. 'Complex', Gary Numan. 'Things Go Bump In The Night' (or whatever it's called), AllStars. And many, many, *many* more.
Have you met any famous musicians/bands?: I met Jamiroquai on a ferry...~g~ I've met a couple of people from much less famous bands, too.
What song do you listen to most when you're in a really bad mood: 'Break Stuff' by Limp Bizkit. Then I go write stories about Fred having cuddly moments with Eminem and feel a lot better. ~g~
What song do you listen to most when you're depressed: ~thinks~ If I want cheering up, something like 'New Star In The Sky' by Air. If I'm wallowing...hmm. The ultimate song is 'Street Spirit (Fade)' by Radiohead, but that would depress me so much more. I don't know.
What song do you most get jiggy to: Well, I generally don't, so...~shrug~
Do you sing in the shower: I sing *everywhere*.
What bands do you NOT listen to: Westlife, Steps (generally), bands like Mudvayne and Raging Speedhorn who sound like they're vomiting into the microphone, uh...~thinks~ Anything which comes under the heading of "Garage"...D-12...Atomic Kitten (sorry Mr. McCluskey!)...there are lots.
Best soundtrack: Ohhh, Velvet Goldmine, definitely.
If you could have your own private gig with whatever bands you wanted, who would you have? Limit 5 bands: Duran. Erasure. Pulp. Suede. And, uh...Toyah would be fun, actually.

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  • Current Music
    'Pencil Skirt', Pulp
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Mr. and Mrs. Goldfish would like to announce...

We have three sets of goldfish twins in our pond!
We did have one baby, called Christopher (baby fish are called fry, Christopher Fry was a playwright, my dad has a wonky sense of humour,) and he's now a teenager, but he now has twin little brothers called Stephen and Martin. And there are two black ones that my dad has charmingly named Castor and Bollocks, and two really really really tiny orangey pink ones called Pinky and Perky, short for Pinkerton and Percolator.

Yes, our family is daft.

E.
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  • Current Music
    'I Want To Be Free', Toyah.
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Well, there comes a time when you just have to go...

.....~cough~ ~cough, cough, splutter, cough, cough~ ~cough~ ~splutter~
......
........Oh. My. God.

........~cough, splutter, cough, faints, gets up, melts~

....and not give any sort of explanation for it.

All I'm going to say (apart from doing my Vince impression that is) is that you have some cool friends, who happen to include him, and he has some cool friends, who happen to include her, and she....she has some *cool* friends.

~cough~

~cough~

~splutter~

-ahem-

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  • Current Music
    I don't know. My heartbeat's pretty loud. ~ggls~
(I've tried patience)

Oh, dear.

~cartwheels across the stars~

He's so fucking cool! (Apart from the geekiness. Dammit.)

....oh well....

....if he knows about machines...I guess it could...ah....come in handy.

~hits head against wall~ Shut up, brain! Shut up! ~ggls~

E.
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(I've tried patience)

Quote.

With apologies to the LJ I took this from.

number of scars on my body- quite a lot. I seem to have skin that remembers.

I liked it.

E.
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  • Current Music
    Zoot Woman, 'Chicago, Detroit, LA'