August 28th, 2001

(I've tried patience)


Yes! Yes! Hurrah! At last! YAY! FINALLY! HURRAH! Everybody PARTY! Hurrah! Hurrah! Hurrah! ~streamers and flowers~


I'm just a little bit...uh...over-awwww'd. ~ggls~ It's a BoyMeetsBoy thing.

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(I've tried patience)

Real rollercoaster of emotions over here...

That last entry as high as a kite, and then this one was going to be a really infuriated one with analogies about mothers coming into rooms without knocking, and now it's going to end up a totally blissed-out, floating on magic carpet of calm but wonderful delight, or possibly delighted wonder.

I'm so weird.

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(I've tried patience)

Everything today is so weird.

Not that everything every day isn't weird, but still. Twiglets have brought back their Worcester Sauce flavour. Yay! I had a totally bonkers dream about being in an interactive movie with my ex-best friend from prep school. Any dreams involving him are more than usually painful, and I can't help the feeling I got that he was just popping up to remind me that I'm not allowed to love anyone more than him, ever. Even though I'm hardly in danger of that.


And now asrana has started filling my head with BMB mirrorfic ideas. ~laughs~


I've spent the whole day doing a mental 100 lines of "I will not pretend that I am in the company of the nicest man in the world, I will not pretend that I am in the company of the nicest man in the world, I will *not* pretend..." ~groan~ Consider me doomed.

I can't believe how enraged I was this morning about something so totally innocuous. Damn my temper.

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    RW, and 'Ieya' by Toyah.
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Bored also...

(Thanks, asrana!)

Physical appearance.
Height - 6'
Eye colour - blue/grey/green, depending.
Hair colour - dark blonde
How many fillings do you have- three, I think. No, wait, two.
Piercings- One in each ear.
Tattoos - Certainly not.
Do you think you're good looking- No.
Do other people - I don't know - if they do, they rarely tell me.
What do you sound like - Depends who I am!

Do you wear a watch- Almost all the time.
How many coats and jackets do you own - That I haven't seen for a few years...
Favorite pants/skirt color - Black!
Favourite top/shirt color - Black! With stuff on!
Most expensive item of clothing - The old red one from Droopy & Brown's, or anything of my mum's I've ever borrowed.
Most treasured - Black skirt wot I have on at the moment.
Boots or shoes - Shoes, only 'cause I don't own any boots...but not for much longer! Mum's promised to buy me some! Yay!
Scruffy or smart - Fairly smart.

Your personality
Extrovert or introvert - Both.
Are you confident - No.
Do you like yourself- Not much.
Are you popular - I don't think so.
Are you good academically - Sometimes.
What do you have a really good knowledge of- LOL 80s popular music and that which went before, early 80s style, current fashion, um...
Are you good at games which rely on intellect - Usually.
Fictional character you are most like - Eeep. I'm a cross between Javelin and *someone*, that's for sure. Perhaps between Javelin and the fiction that is Nick Rhodes.
Do you drink/take drugs - No.
Can you speak another language - Yes.
Are you moody - Oh, god, yes.
Use five words to describe what you feel inside- Loved, unloved, lonely, ashamed, individual.
Do people know how you feel- Probably. I tend to broadcast. ~rueful g~
What would you change about your personality - The way I fall for a lot of inappropriate people.
Are you perceived wrongly - Probably.
What drives you? - With music, an all-consuming enthusiasm. With everything else, the fear of being a failure, I suppose.
Worst fault - My temper, I think.

Your friends.
Do your friends know you - Not completely. (And some random person I barely know knows more about me than a lot of my close school friends - but that's relatively normal I guess.)
What do they tend to be like - Weird.
Are there traits in you that are universally liked- My ability to listen has been remarked upon by many. So that's one good thing. :-)
Few friends or many acquaintances- Both.
Can you count on them- Some of them for some things.
Can they count on you- Usually. So long as they're people whom I consider my friends, not just ones who consider themselves my friends.

Favorite bands ever- Duran, Erasure.
Most listened to bands currently- Rufus Wainwright, Goldfrapp, Toyah, Duran.
Can you play an instrument - Voice and a little bit of piano.
Books- Not really, not any more. It's a real shame.
Films - Velvet Goldmine, Labyrinth, and - HEDWIG'S OUT ON FRIDAY!
TV- Never Mind The Buzzcocks, TOTP2.

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(I've tried patience)

Another quiz which we started weeks ago...

...and still haven't finished. Here's half of it, done by myself, Mr. Nick Rhodes (in the bold corner), and the inestimable Nigel Taylor (in the italic corner). Ahem. John. What? Oh, yes - John Taylor. Sorry, John.

Full name: Emily Hannah Woolf. Nicholas James Bates, no jokes please. Nigel John Taylor, through no fault of my own.
Gender: Female. Male. Both of us. Though people wonder about Nick. Thanks. Any time, mate.
Born: 19/06/84. That always makes me feel so old. Anyway, 8/6/62. 20/6/60.
Lives in: My home. The Royal London Borough Of Chelsea. Pretentious? Him? Never. LA for me.
Starsign: We're all Gemini! And it shows.
School: Roedean. The End Of The World As We Know It, Birmingham. Can't say I can deny that.
Pets: Johnny. But, dear, he's my pet as well. Mind you, I have a cat to keep me company when he's off gallivanting. You know, I think you're the only person left in the world who ever uses that. No pets.
Where are you from?: Here. Birmingham. The Land that Style Forgot.
What color are your eyes?: Blue-grey-green. Green. Brown.
Hair color: Dark blonde. At the moment, blonde with a touch of red. Right now, dark brown.
Piercing/tattoos: I have my ears pierced. No, thankyou. Not really. Not really? What do you mean, not really? I got a piercing, but it's closed up. I don't want to know. No, you really don't, I can assure you of that.
Marital status: So, so single. Divorced, beheaded, died, divorced, beheaded, survived. Married in the literal sense only.
1. Are you a Virgin?: Sort of. Hardly. I'd say not, wouldn't you? Not in any sense of the word, John.
2. Are you a right or a lefty or an ambidextrous?: We're all right-handed. Nick is ambidextrous about some things. Thanks for that. You're welcome.
3. What are your personality traits?: General Gemininess. Perfectionism. Laziness when I should be working, working myself too hard when I should be relaxing.
4. What do you like most about yourself?: My hair. John. My bass and my eyebrows. Not that you guys are at all weird in any way.
5. Pick a song that describes yourself: Astradyne by Ultravox. Not sure. John? Yours is Dedicated Follower Of Fashion by The Kinks. Mine is White Lines. I can't work out whether that's good or bad. Nick? Nick? Go away, I'm still sulking about the Kinks thing. ~laughs~
6. What's your name backwards: Ylime. Salohcin. Not a bad name for a pet lizard. I beg your pardon? And mine is Legin.
7. What does your name mean?: Lucky. I think. Em tells me it means "Victory of the Greeks". Nigel...Nigel...I don't know. I think it was dad's way of telling me I was never going to be famous.
8. Do you believe in yourself?Not really. Possibly. I have to.
9. Do you have an accent?: Not as such. Several. Yes. I think. Yes, you do, and it's *awful*.
10. Do you believe in God?: No. Not in the conventional sense. Yes.
11. Do you go to church?: Not if I can help it. We rarely have time.
12. Can you swim?: We all can, but only John likes to.
13. Do you drink?: No. At every possible opportunity. Not as much as I'd like to, but more than I should.
14. Do you do drugs?: No. Not any more.
15. Do you smoke?: No. Yes. Yes.
16. Do you bite your nails?: Yes. </b>No.</b> Yes.
17. Are you addicted to the Internet?: We all are. But Nick more than anyone!
18. How many times do you check your e-mail per day: Five or six. About twenty, if I have the time. Three or four.
19. Do you ever have AIM conversations?: No. Not since I gave up aol, who are abominable. Yes.
20. Do you have ICQ?: None of us do.
21. How long can you hold your breath?: Don't know. Over a minute, but I don't know more than that. John, are we going to answer this? It sort of depends on how desperate we both are. I think we'll draw a veil...
24. What hobbies do you have?: Music. Books. Music. Books. Music. Cars.
25. Do you think you're attractive?: Only to *weird* people. To a certain extent. I've been told so.
26. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: No. I've been meaning to ask, *do* you count? I'm not sure.
27. What do you wear to bed?: Nightshirt, usually. Same here. Generally just boxer shorts. Or nothing. I could have warned you he was going to say that. At least he's not Simon. How true.
28. One Pillow or 2?: Two. One, and John. One.
30. When is your bedtime?: Midnight in the holidays, ten in schooltime. We're adults! You can't make us! Yeah, 'cause you sounded SO adult there...
30. What do you think about before you go to sleep?: Depends who I am. John. Nick. ~g~ Aww....
32. What's under your bed?: Yes, the Kama Sutra is still there! I don't know, it's been a couple of decades since I checked. Another bed.
33. Are you an optimist or pessimist?: Pessimist. Realist. Pessimist.
34. Better to cry or laugh?: Stupid question. Cry. Cry. OK, maybe not such a stupid question. ~shakes head~ You guys are *weird*.
35. Ever been in love?: Yes. Yes. Yes. Still am.
36. Right now, who do you want to marry and spend the rest of your life with?: Midge Ure! ROFL I can't marry him, so... Yeah, same here. But I still want to spend the rest of my life with you. Too kind. I know.
37. Where do you want to go on your honeymoon: I want to stay at home. Hear, hear. Guess that's that decided then.
38. When you notice somebody of the opposite sex what do you notice first?: Their hair, usually. Legs! That's really *sad*, you know?
39. Guys- If a girl ever asked you for the shirt on your back, would you
give it to her?: Certainly not - I'd rather give her the money to go and buy one for herself. Typical. Sure I would.
40. Girls- ...?: What? Would I give a guy my shirt? Why the heck would a guy want my shirt?
41. Guys, would you ever ask a random girl for her shirt?: No. He has enough ladies' shirts as it is. Thank you so much. Welcome. You love me anyway. Uh...I might.
42. Do you think men and women can ever just be friends without wanting each
other?: No. Yes, but only if one or the other is gay. Good answer.
43. Who's better, Boys or Girls: At what?
44. What's your "type"?: Of *what*?
45. Internet Boyfriends and Girlfriends-- stupid or cool?: Painful and horrible. Sorry, but I think it's fairly stupid. That's ok, it is. It's just painful and horrible as well. ~g~
46. Are you a player?: To an extent. Only when Simon's around. I'd like to think so.
47. Did you ever cry over someone of the opposite sex?: Yes! Today! Lots! Yes. Yes.
48. Did you ever have a crush on a cartoon character?: Yes! Today! Lots! ~ggls~ Can't say I did. Yes. Who?? *So* not telling you.
49. Are you a good friend?: Sometimes. Not particularly. Better these days than I used to be.
50. What's your biggest fear?: Humiliation. That and John dying, I think. Losing control over myself.
51. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys?: If I didn't, you wouldn't be able to read this.
52. Do you make fun of people?: Yes. Oh, yes. Often.
53. What is the stupidest thing you have ever done?: The dressing-gown cord comes pretty close. Given up. Given in. You two make such a good team. Thanks. Don't mention it.
54. What is the smartest thing you have ever done?: Nothing yet! Let John back into my life. I guess that would make mine "begged for forgiveness" then, huh? Definitely one of them.
55. Do you eat chicken fingers with a fork?: I would if I ate them. Of course. No, and you're both really sad, you know that? Gee, thanks. Welcome.
56. How do you eat an Oreo?: Depends who I am. Unwillingly. Like you're meant to.
57. Do you eat the stems of broccoli?: Yes, unless they're absurdly tough.
58. Is the glass half empty of half full?: Half empty. Half full. Half empty, or completely empty if it's too near me.
59. Which came first-The chicken or the egg?: Egg. Egg. Chicken.
60. What color is your toothbrush?: White and green. White and blue, and why on _earth_ are you asking? Guess they were just really bored. Mine's kind of orange. Orange? He means tortoiseshell. You have a tortoiseshell *toothbrush*? Man.
61. What color is your toothpaste?: Green. White. White.
62. What's on your walls in your room?: I believe I've detailed this before. Pictures and paintings by family and friends. I sleep in Nick's room. Aww....
63. What is on your ceiling?: Glow-in-the-dark stars. Paint and a light. Uh...I sleep in Nick's room. Have we been here before? ~g~
64. Have you ever been attacked by a big dog?: Yes. No. Yes, protecting Nick from it.
66. Do you get along with your parents?: No. Absolutely. Never.
67. Craziest/Silliest person you know: Odile? Simon. With you on that one.
68. What sucks about school?: School. Everything, if my rapidly failing memory serves me. I didn't mind it so much.
69. Say one nice thing about the person who sent this to you: She's asrana. That's more than nice enough. I'll drink to that. You would. She has stunning eyes. I'd like to photograph her.

So now you know.

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(I&#39;ve tried patience)

My head is spinning...'s mainly spinning because it doesn't understand what's going on. My heart seems to want to beat its way out of my body, my eyes are auditioning for the part of Niagara Falls and my brain is so confused it's tripping over its own wires.

I think I'm probably happy, though.

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    A song, would you believe it, from Panto Pronto. Tom again.
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And just in case that wasn't sad enough for ya...

"There are bluebirds in the moonlight...
Silly idea - bluebirds in the moonlight!
But that's how I feel when I'm with you...

There are night owls in the daylight....
Silly idea - night owls in the daylight!
But that's how I feel when I'm with you...."

--from Disney's 'Gulliver's Travels'
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    The above tune is going round and round and round...