I'm going to not post for a while. There's too much going on and although everyone's offers of support and help are genuine and appreciated, they have a tendency to make me feel incredibly guilty and like I should take everyone up on everything and then panic because that would involve everyone taking my life out of my hands and and and. So I think it's a good idea if I steer clear of telling you how things are. Assume they're awful but that you can't do anything. :)
Much love though, and I'll probably be reading my Flist, so don't feel ignored, just understand that I kind of want to be, for a while.