I was talking with my tutor last week about how sometimes when people say "It'll get easier with time" or "Once you get there, it'll be okay", they're actually just lying. They just are, it just doesn't, and, y'know. That kind of thing. It's true. Some things don't get any easier or less terrifying with time, or practice, or encouragement, or anything.
I'm actually making myself ill here, and that's not a good thing.