It is freezing cold everywhere. It's nearly Christmas and I'm not going to be at home and I can't bear that. My Flist has really kicked me in the chest today. I can't bear being this far away from everyone. I think after Miranda has gone today I'll just come up here and shut my door and not come out until it's all over. I think that'll be best. It's worked for the last few days. Hours pass, I steal music off the internet, I cry, I sleep, I make it to the next day. It works, at least.