Because I have been to the doctor. I have renewed my prescription for anti-depressants. I have talked to her about my migraines. I have, or will soon have, an appointment at Guy's Hospital to take care of the dental work that I've needed done for, like, a year. In the meantime, I have no-actually-fuck-off-strength painkillers. And I know it doesn't sound like much, but it's taken me over a year to get here, to a point where I could go and do this. I know it doesn't sound like much, but it was. So, hey. Whatever else I do today, at least I've done that.